I’ve been on sort of a self imposed hiatus. I just couldn’t post, a dark place took over and I found myself not wanting to look at the good things going on around me. I still don’t have a job, I am applying left and right, about 10-20 resumes are sent out a week to open jobs, but most places never respond back (with nearly 12% unemployment here, companies are flooded when they open a position). I call a temp agency usually every 2 weeks just to check in, and have interviewed….but not really gotten anywhere. It’s frustrating. It’s down right depressing. I know it’s not just me, many friends are unemployed and feel this way.
I am trying really hard to brush off the spiderwebs and find my mojo again. I need my lust for life and positivity back. I need to stop this self pity it’s leaving dust where my happy used to be. I need to find my glow again and stop putting it on with a blush brush. Faux glow just ain’t doing it anymore.
I am starting to apply at retail stores, just as a confidence boost to actually have a place to go, a paycheck be it small, but something better than the measly unemployment check that I’m getting. I want to feel me again. I want to feel worthy. I love the people in my life and am so lucky to have such a loving husband and friends, people who have put up with my quiet and my tears.
Any suggestions are welcome….until then I will be trying my best to find and post just a little happy.
Today my happy is puppy kisses, a day in the middle of the week with my husband (he had a vacation day to use!), double coupons at Bath and Body Works….came home with a huge bag of new smells for only $10!!! and reading while it rains (Eat, Pray, Love).
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