Things That Make My Heart Flutter – July 30th

Random Bits of Happy

Crafty crafty!  My new purse!

* I GOT A JOB!!! I start Monday and I couldn’t be happier.  An administrative assistant for the IT department.  Working with geeks….I shall do very well in this position!

*I have been working at improving my crafting skills and sewed the above purse and make up bag out of a pair of old jeans and a tie.  I am a proud little crafter and also proud of my recycling skills.  I also saved my favorite jeans this week after the riveted button fell off (in a strange manner in which my jeans were being ripped off *shock*) and I found some old vintage buttons to replace the closure and also the the back pockets (which one had also come off….cheap rivets or something!) and it made the jeans super cute!  Reuse, Reduce and Recycle in full effect baby!


* I found a perfume that smells exactly like Aveda yummy products.  You can smell wonderful in an essential oil all day long!  Violet in 5 Points has the entire mini line of rollerball essential oils and you can pick your own scent.  Read more about the Tsi-la organics.


* This weekend is the SummerTime in the City annual celebration of Hip Hop!  Go to the site to find out who to see and where to go!  We plan on spending Saturday bouncing from site to site ending up at Shantytown in the end!  I can’t wait!

As a side bit of happy…free music and it’s all Hip Hop to celebrate the above:

Damn It Feels Good To Be a Gangster! a mixtape by LA Leakers & Murs this is a fantastic mix

LEAK AT WILL a chance for Atmosphere to thank their fans. They are amazing, take a listen if you don’t know.

Urban Jacksonville #9 a mixtape collaboration by UJ & Thought &Theory is worth a listen.

There you go, 3 free dope soundtracks to get you through the summer.  Don’t say I never give you anything! Lol!

*The last little bit of happy is just me being so in love with my husband.  He supported me over the 3 months that it has taken me to find a new job.  It is stressful to switch to one income and he handled it with class and love.  He kept my spirit up when it was a little crushed and that is everything and more that was needed.

Books: The Salaryman’s Wife by Sujata Massey

masseyThis book had a little of everything.  Mystery, romance, action and a foreign setting made this the perfect book choice for me.  Rei is a states born Japanese-American who loves Japan and teaches English for a kitchen retail company in Tokyo.  On a long New Years Eve vacation to a snowy small town in Northern Japan she stays at an Inn with a handful of colorful characters and a murder takes place.  She gets pulled into the mystery as the translator but becomes emotionally involved when a new love interest made at the Inn becomes the main suspect.

The book takes you through many of Japan’s towns, the unspoken manners that are required and the seedy nightlife that exists in Tokyo.  I found myself unable to put the book down and while I thought I had everything figured out and just KNEW who the bad guy was…I was surprised to find I was wrong.  I love it when mysteries let me think I have it figures out and then pull a fast flip on me!  I will be checking out more of Sujata Massey’s many mysteries.  Many of them seem to be American’s working in Japan.  A fun fast read!  4 out of 5 butterflies!

Best walk down the isle ever!

So full of joy and happiness, this is how it should be! It was a party from the very beginning! It’s worth watching this all the way through!

Books: 45 Thoughts For My Daughter & My Virtual Daughters

I loved Francesca Lia Block in high school and still pick up her Pagan Fairytales that touch on social issues. This open letter inspires me!

forty-five thoughts for my daughter and my virtual daughters

By Francesca Lia Block.

i always believed if i had blond hair, pixie face
big breasts
everything would be all right
not realizing that culturally idolized beauty
is not only foolproof
but potentially dangerous

if you believe in your own unconventional beauty
when you are young
you will accomplish twice as much and suffer half so

turn off lightbulbs and light a candle

walk don’t drive

plant a tree

wear sunscreen

dancing is an antidepressant

kindness is the new status symbol

every day please try to eat something green
and something orange
that grow out of the ground

tell me how mad you are
that your father and i parted
i will always listen
though i can’t ever take away the pain

expectations are for what you yourself create

they rarely work when applied to others

turn off the television

tv is a depressant

yoga is an antidepressant

don’t feel guilty about wanting pretty things

they would not be so alluring
if you weren’t supposed to want them
just don’t value them over compassion

use your words even when you are a grown-up
and people no longer think it is entirely acceptable
when you say, that hurt my feelings

if you can digest chocolate eat it sometimes

same goes for ice cream
(i don’t really need to tell you those things do i?)

do your homework because it is part of the game but

don’t spend too much time worrying about grades

fall in love with someone kind who loves your body
and your mind

if you have a dream that won’t let you go, that
tickles your solar plexus, heed it

turn dark feelings into paintings or poetry
or dancing

music is a kind of food

if you are sad talk to a happy woman who loves you
it will always help

move your body when you are sad or angry

avoid the following:
genetically modified ingredients
sodium lauryl sulfate
mercury in certain fish
neurotic thoughts about food
(is that a contradiction?)

love your curls though they tangle
your pale skin though it can burn in the sun
your nose though it is broader than some
your sturdy legs and feet

forget barbie she does not possess imagination

remember you are a botticelli angel

the planet we live on is perfection

love her like a goddess

love yourself as her daughter

there is a planet full of different kinds of beauty

the idea that only one type of woman is beautiful
is blasphemy

of everything i brought to the world in these
forty-five years
you and your brother are by far the most astounding

because of this i will always love your father

matter never vanishes, only changes

remember that when someone you love dies

your round head on my breast when you were born
is the memory
i will keep with me when i leave this body

when i am gone i will still be near you

this is how i know: when you were born
it was not a meeting
but a reunion

Things that Make My Heart Flutter – July 17th

Random Bits of Happy

*Craft day with my friend on Monday was a lot of fun.  I ended up with 4 pieces and with a little practice I’ll have something I not only am proud to wear but maybe even proud to sell.  Searching for the bits and pieces we used was fun too!  I can’t wait to get another craft day in order!

*Most of the rest of the week I was fighting being sick but it caused me to slow down and just take a little me time break.  I feel much better and am glad I didn’t let the sick creep in all the way!

*Late night whispers of our future.  These talks have been my saving grace.  When things are bad and the job search is so rotten, it helps to lay in the dark with his arms around me and whisper out our future that WILL be better!



ruffle panties for us plus size girls, we like the sexy too!, music you forgot you had but is such a treat to your ears, and all it’s little rooms of awesome, Harry Potter is out and I can’t wait to see it, catching my girlfriend in Japan online the same time as me and getting to talk to her for an hour, finding amazing books at the library, Black Phoenix Alchemy Labs has a steampunk area!


New music that I am waiting anxiously for! New Tegan & Sara!

Butterlies: My current influences

I think these are pretty self explanatory, as always butterflies influence my everyday.  I have an old skeleton key obsession and have a mini collection.  Books are always with and around me, currently scifi, vampires and pagan books are at the top of my stacks.  Tarot cards are back in my life.  I was using my oracle cards but am getting the bigger picture with my tarot.  Candles, daisies and crystals are just pretty and make me feel happy so I have actually been wearing a clear quartz crystal that my Aunt gave me years ago.  She has always been my Pagan connection, she gave me the crystals, the palmistry books, read my tarot at the age of 13.  I had put the crystal away when I moved and found it opening a box, it makes me smile and was a happy rediscovery.  Daisies and fern scented candles are in my life right now.  The fern scented soy candles surrounding the vase of daisies….well it’s just summer!  Fresh herbs, well I let them burn up but I do love them.  I neglect them but I adore them and buy them every year.  Last year was the most successful year.  This year my head wants to be in the plants but is in the clouds instead…looking at those big full moons!  Cottages are part of my current dreams and an obsession.  I dream about a cottage by a stream.  I have yet to look it up in a dream book.  I wake up and google search cottages.  The ecclectic nature of a whitewashed room with books and candles and vases of wild flowers with crazy quilts over wrought iron beds and sheer curtains with tin roofs and herb gardens, stepping stones with moss surrounding them and ferns in the nooks and crannys in the shade of the yard.  It is an escape I am guessing since the stress of looking for a job just keeps on coming at me.  I dream of simple, quiet life outside of the crazy of  jobs, cars, and bills.

Baubles: Steampunk

In preparing for steampunk craft day I got a little in the mood by putting together a little Victorian garb!

Butterflies – A shuttle launch

launchSTS-127 Endeavour

For anyone living in Florida the coolest thing ever is to see a shuttle launch. Imagine my surprise when I learned my husband has never seen one up close. There are plans in the works to make sure he sees one soon! We might only see the launch today from Jacksonville but there is another launch on Aug. 18th at 4:35 am which means it will be dark, those are the coolest launches. I’m pushing for us to go see that launch. Anyone in Florida can look up in the sky though and see tonight’s launch. From Jacksonville we will see bright orange trails and can follow it up into the nights sky. It’s really amazing to see something so huge and know that it is going to be in space. You can keep track of the launch schedule by visiting the Nasa site!

Beats & Books

Yes, there wasn’t a music post this week (or last week I think too) and book reviews haven’t been completed yet either.  Reason being is that I haven’t come across anything new that has inspired me and for books I am caught up in a series by J.R. Ward and it’s lovely vampire gothic erotica but I doubt anyone is very intersted in reviews on what is basically a romance novel.  All I can say is if you want a book series to get you hot and bothered then J.R. Ward is your lady.  I think I am on book 7 or 8…I lost count but It’s called Lover Enshrined and it’s great.  I know my husband loves it when I put down the book and jump on top of him to bite his neck and take him.  He doesn’t mind the effects of the books! LOL.

So music!  Songs that are inspiring me right now are a little dark and gothy
Mirah – The Garden

Also Apocalyptica featuring Adam Gontier of Three Days Grace – I Don’t Care (they don’t allow me to embed, so click through for their lovely song). I REALLY dig how they “play” the women like Cellos. Hot!

Blue Foundation – Eyes on Fire

Kristin Hersch – Me & My Charms